Relationship Evolution

I moved in with my boyfriend of one year and eight months in April of this year. It was a very exciting, scary, happy, stressful moment in my life. Even though we weren't getting married, we were taking two different lives and meshing them together into two bedrooms, an open kitchen and several hundred square feet. Something radical occurs when you do this: Relationship Evolution.

Although I frequently stayed overnight and visited him when he lived with his mother, I still had a home with my bed, my family and my things. I floated between two dwellings, and had options on where to stay if he made me mad. :)

I would visit him at his place, he would visit me at mine. We would meet in public places, like the book store or a diner. And when we went on vacation, we... Read More

Home Sweet Home

After 5 weeks of traveling and studying abroad, I finally returned to USA and am home. The question is however, where is home? For me home has so many different definitions. It could be where I was raised and lived my whole life. It could be my boyfriend's house where I have lived for the past 3 years, or it could be college where I live during the academic year. One day after returning to the States, I yet again packed up my belongings and moved to yet another home.
My boyfriend and I pulled into our new driveway Sunday at 10:30 pm accompanied by my parents and stared blankly at our new apartment. Around 1am, after unpacking the vehicles, my parents left and we were "on our own"....and it was one of the greatest feelings I have ever felt. It was the best sense of freedom, ... Read More

Not what you would expect

For the majority of my life I have spent my time wishing I was in another place. Any place other than where I was would be fine, another town, another generation, another country, it didn´t matter as long as it was not home. That wish follewed me where ever I went and slowly transformed in to a goal that must be completed. When I graduated high school I started college at a nearby University and commuted, hating every day classes and working insane full time hours at my job. I needed change and transferred to another school about 80 miles from home, no big deal about and hour and a half drive.
That decision was one of the best I have ever made. The first week was tough, missing everything I had ever known and feeling virtually alone. The time went by however and I got used t... Read More

For You I Tried.

I can’t stand this every time you’re around; you make me hate myself even more. You tell me I need to lose weight but look at you. Maybe I’m happy the way I am, did you every bother to ask me that. Maybe this is the way god wanted me to look, why is there is a certain set stereotype people should look? I look at all the pretty slender girls and envy them because if I looked like them then you wouldn’t bother me anymore. I work hard at school and hope that you would praise me for that but what I look like is all you care about. But my sister makes bad grades and jogs a block around the neighborhood you praised her with all the love i never had. Sometimes I wish I was her because to you, grades aren’t a concern. But a good thing that came out of this is that if he didn’t nag me about t... Read More

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On my own, literally.

Parents, they are suppose to be there for you when you need them, they are suppose to care for you, love you unconditionally despite your wrongs, and help you grow along the ways as you learn from your own mistakes.

Parents, they are not suppose to stop you from chasing after your dreams, or tell you they don’t love you once you fucked up, worst of all tell you not to be who you are but who they want you to be.

Parents, I never had any, I had people who supposedly “cared” but they were more of just obstacles in my day to day life that I have always tried to avoid and which I got pretty damn good at.

And Family, what the hell does that mean to you? the last three letters of family is “I love you” but for me it was more like “Irritating, Ludicrous, family me... Read More

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What do you see?

I'm one of those people who doesn't live in the moment it is all about the future. Everything I do now predicts my future. So my question is what do you see for yourself in 5 years, 10 years, or 100 years. Here is mine:


I see myself living in a nice neighborhood in VA Beach. With 2 adoptive kids Addison Eve (Addie) and Jackson Aden (Jack). With a wonderful fiance and a group of close friends. These friends and I do everything with each other. I would be make a boat load of money selling make up and other health products thru my online business.


What is yours?? ... Read More

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