To all the lifers out there.

My goodness, but aren't we in for the long haul?

Finances never go away. Having to be financed, having to pay finances, having to understand and capture and get those wild things under control. Welcome to Junior year of College, kids. You thought you were going to be able to settle in? The answer is no. The seat never gets that comfortable. The stuffing always finds a way to fall out. Or the legs break off. The issues are multifaceted and plentiful, and often unexpected. Add that to the fact that you always seem to want things you do not really need, and college becomes a money grave where the bodies are not piling up fast enough. Of course, everyone has their money woes, and I am not the first to be concerned, to have to chew my nails and tighten my belt in prepa... Read More

It's a bit like...

For as much as I love living, I hate being human sometimes. It's a bit of a terrible state to be in when I think I wouldn't be able to feel this way if I wasn't human...presumably.

Putting the latter aside, I'd much rather have a short and treacherous experience as a fox, or rabbit, raccoon, or sparrow than sit here and think so much.

Think about how I got to this point in my life. Think about the rhythm of the leaking ceiling and how it should be recorded because, for once, there's a leak more musical than maddening.

I think about the personality of my cat. How I love that he has it, but dread it as well, because one day he'll be gone.

And there are the things that constantly hound me, like money and love. Society's chains. I can't live witho... Read More

More things to do.

Now that my dear friend, who I will refer to frequently, has essentially told me, "Blogging: You're doing it wrong" I decided to do it right, and also a bit like a crazy person. So to kick off my actual, literal first blog ever, I am going to compile a list of stuff that I think would be fun (or good) to accomplish. There has been no forethought in the making of this list. Because that is how I do. Hahaha.

1. Sprinkle SnoCaps on a literal mountain top that is snowy
2. Buy some elastic and do one of those "Alter your T-shirts" projects
3. Successfully complete a back hand spring
4. Successfully purchase a new computer
5. Bury a bone in a back yard
6. Grow my toenail back all the way
7. Finish any of the short stories I start
8. Like that short... Read More

The Week I Had Superpowers, or Tradgey in Trumansburg

The Oxman is heavy set, a chain smoker, and in critical condition. He's a musician and a friend, and in his own words...he's not 'effin around'.

And As I write this, he's still unconscious, his insides mashed up and lumpy and torn, as if they had been pressed through a cheese grater. His bones have been pulverized and it seems his brain is nothing more than mindless gray matter.

Needless to say, I am not in a good mood night. God and I are not on great terms, if we ever were.

It's sick, but can't help to think that the Oxman has been reduced to ground beef, his fleshy body no match for twisted steel and glass and gravitational forces.

It's time like these that I remember that no one's body really is. And that's a thought just trite enough to be... Read More

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Ethical Dilemmas

After I blogged this morning, I went through my normal morning routine (shower, dressing, etc.) I have to tell you...my heart was very heavy about these things, about whether or not I understood the Scriptures, and whether or not I was in the right place or right group. I went before the Lord to inquire of Him, and after some time of pondering my own position, I finally received clarity.

I guess the truth of the matter is this: you cannot change a horse's spots, kwim?

I am the way I am, and though I do try to demonstrate mercy and compassion, and I try very hard not to judge others, I tend to be very black and white when it comes to the Word of God. I take it at face value. If God said it, then it is so. I don't mince the words, I don't try and figure them out. I tak... Read More

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New Look, New Perspective

I recently updated my profile picture, and now have changed the look of my blog. Thanks to Blogger for some nice new template designs, I have have a fresh look for this new season in my life.

There is something about changing your appearance, something wonderful that seems to happen whenever you do it. For me, changing anything seems to give me a boost of confidence, a sense of accomplishment, and that "can do" attitude that often I need to help me stay on task and finish up a difficult assignment.

I like to rearrange my furniture or paint my room a different color. Even small changes such as a new comforter for my bed or throw pillows on the sofa -- will perk me up, and say to me: "Now, doesn't that look so much better?" The same thing happens with a new haircut or ... Read More

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