Posted: Saturday, February 23, 2013 2:04:43 AM
Lately I've been really moody with all of my friends and family and it's started to really affect how close I am with them and how they feel about me. I hate the way I am and the way I act towards people I care about, but it's really difficult for me to change the way I am. I feel like, if I completely change my personality and the way I 'am' then It'll just be like I'm pushing away my true feelings. Almost like I'm wearing a sort of mask, and that's not what I believe people should do just to make other people happy.
I feel like I'm in one of those positions in which I can choose one path and miss out on all of the blooming flowers and splashing streams, but get to where i need to go in a way that helps me focus on me and only me. Or I can choose the other path and see all of the amazing views but hide behind all of the trees on the way.
At the moment, I keep jumping between paths which is not only confusing myself, but also my friends and family who love and support me.
I'm just not sure how to deal with all of my anger and 'annoyance' (in a way) without having to take it out on everyone around me. I guess I'm just asking for a little advise from anyone who can help. Thanks for reading this HUGE complaint of sorts. And thanks for your help.