Posted: Friday, November 30, 2012 5:49:08 PM
When it comes to inspirations, I'm mostly inspired by music, and not really books. I love books, I read all the time, but I normally don't become really close to the characters. Usually, in music, there is a tone of voice that helps me relate to the emotions shown.
However, there is one book that I've connected to so well that I read it over and over again and never get tired of it. “It's Kind of a Funny Story” by Ned Vizzini is a young adult novel that centers around a fifteen-year old boy who is stressed out from school and his friends, tries to kill himself, but is sent to a mental ward instead. Now you may be thinking, with a title like “It's Kind of a Funny Story”, what's so funny about any of this? Well, there is a ton of wit and sarcastic humor that compels the story, makes it more realistic, and thusly is closer to relate to.
The main character, Craig, is the one character that I have bonded the most with. I understood the problems he faced, as I was also stressed out from school at the time when I was reading it. More or less it was friendship and trust problems as opposed to being overworked. Still, my parents did expect a great deal out of me, and it put a lot of weight on my shoulders.
I was depressed and didn't really know what I was doing with my life when I picked this book up at a local bookstore. Before I read it, I really hated realistic fiction and most of the young adult novels, as most that I had seen had terrible writing and awful plot. Little did I know that this book would set me into the genre I now love to write and would prefer it over fantasy any day.
The plot went by rather slowly and bored me at first, but once Craig really started to develop as a character, I realized how much he sounded like me, in personality and troubles. I kind of felt like I was Craig in a way, and that I was actually in the mental ward with him, going through all this madness that was funny, embarrassing, and memorable at the same time. This book made me laugh, cry, and most of all, change myself. The conclusion is quite simply beautiful in itself, beautiful enough to make me cry. It says that everything you do, every verb and action is yours, and you choose it. You choose to live, so live. That part is really what hit me, and ever since then I don't think I've felt as bad about myself. True, there are times when I just want to give up, but then I remember that line and everything that I have done, and I feel better. Not overly happy, but so much better than before. And that's good enough for me.