Tyann Holmes
My definition of love : it’ll have you going through thick , thin and thicker.

Love is only a word. A meaningless, heartbreaking, untrue, overused, dreadful word. How do I really feel about love? I hate it! I hate the hurt and the tears, the wonder, the feeling that comes with it; I hate the feeling of some one being there for you. Just for the fact that one-day they will wake up one morning and feel the complete opposite about you. I hate the way my mind wonders what you really think of me. How you really think I look or sound. How he feels about me. If he really loves me. I hate the after math of being in love. Knowing that you had something special just to let it die. Why go through it? Why deal with it? Why love someone when your know how it will end up? All of these are unconditional hurts that can be avoided. You know you’re in love when you wake up to the thought of him. When he’s the last voice you hear every night on purpose. When you have a nightmare and that’s the one person you talk to it about. Love will change you. Love will have you spinning in circles you’ve never been in. love will have you in the deep end when you cant swim. Love will change you. You will gain friends and loose them. Love will knock and pick you up. It will put you in the mud with pigs and treat you like a baby with an eating disorder… how ever that is. Love will change the way you talk, feel, smell, see and taste. Love will change the way you love. Some say love is for the better. I agree. Even though you go through thick and thin and thicker, it’s better to be in some type of situation with another person rather than alone every day. Love has its good moments. Now matter how long they last, they happen. Appreciation is key, cause you may not get very many good moments. But its not like the world makes it easy to not love. Billboards, posters, movies, TV. Shows, songs, plays, books, friend, and family push you into some of the worst decision of your life. They show people kissing, making love, getting married, dancing in the rain, loving each other regardless of there flaws, and other silly stuff like that. Stuff real people never go through. But you want to have the feelings they are experiencing. My parents got devoiced a few years ago. It’s a good thing they did! There was cheating going on, which is one of those situations {putting all that time into a good stable relationship just to let it fall apart.} They wasted a lot of valuable time. Maybe one day I will find some one I honestly cant get enough of. I some one I’ve had to much of but cant let go of. Maybe I already did. Maybe he’s under the tip of my nose and I just can’t see him. Maybe I wrote this because I want some one to change my mind. If he can maybe it will be love.