Posted: Wednesday, April 25, 2012 8:05:42 PM
In the Family Portion of my Life:
Why don't you treat your parents the same, favoring one or the other depending on your mood? Why don't you listen when your brother wants to play a game with you, or jump on the trampoline, or help with homework, especially when you know you eventually won't be asked because you won't be there? How don't you know his favorite color or movie? Why do you only choose to talk to your mom when you need to complain about your life? Why do you tune out the complaints about hers? When will you finally miss them after you move out? Do they approve of your choices?
When will you apologize for leaving your old best friend in the dust? When will you realize she's moved on, but when will you know if she wants to leave room for you now? When will you finally get sick of your current best friend; when will you stop taking her foolishness? Will I still know and care for the people I call friends now, in 20 years? Do they really accept me, or think I'm trying to be someone I'm not? How do they know how I feel, or when something is wrong? Am I being too clingy; am I distancing myself too much?
Will I stay with this boy forever, like I'd like to? When will I get married? Will we be well off in life? Will I remember the fights we've had the past year and 7 months, or will I remember the great times? Will we argue constantly, or forgive and talk things out in the future? Will I be happy with him always? Will he be a good dad when we have kids when we grow up? Do I really agree with all his decisions; do I agree with all mine?
Life in General:
What will I do as a job? Where will I go to college? Can I get into an Ivy League like I'd like? Will I see my brother and young cousins grow up to be successful? Will I become friends with my family members? Will I have a stable income? Will I regret anything a little, or even a lot? But most importantly, am I happy in my future; happier than I am now?
Now, after reading through my questions, perhaps you have answers to them for yourself. Maybe you have more questions now than you did before. But this is what I go through in my head every day of my life; I doubt it will ever stop because life never stops changing.